Reunion is over...the preparation has been crazy,hectic and i seriously hav to thank each and every 24th ODACers for committing so much time and effort into this event. Really, it wont be so successful without u guys..and as one of the I/C myself, i think i hav not done up to expectations, jaclyn has been doing a lot of stuffs and calvin,shi han, jason and the rest also did a lot...
sumhow the sense of emptiness has conquered me again after reunion is over, it's jus weird to become free so suddenly and dunno what to do...well but it did not last too long, i was informed that i'm oso in charge of national day celebration...meaning i'll hav to stay back in school from monday to wednesday,setting up outdoor sound everyday for the 'short' celebrations which might not even attract 3 quarter of the school populations...argh how wrong was i when i thought at the end of term 2 that the second half of the year would be much 'free-er' than term 2, nah, the number of concerts didnt cut down tat significantly and we are still down for quite a lot of event, not forgetting all the important term 4 events, open house,farewell assembly, teachers day etc etc etc..
i wonder if i wud hav any time to study, was planning to catch up some tutorials during the upcoming 4-days-long holiday, but then in the end, at least 2 days were booked, pw meeting and the visit to botanic garden, thr might be kayaking on sunday oso, that left only 1 whole day for me to study, which i doubt i would...
argh, receive the appeal form for continuing to take 4 H2 subjects, haha how pathetic m i, nv in such a situation before, i hav nv failed my academic expectations so terribly before, failing more than half of the subjects is jus simply dissapointing, i noe my slackness in term 1 and 2 has paid off, but still it's jus too shameful for me to accept it, and i'm expected to perform better than local students, jus like wat ms ow said:' u guys are paid to study.' perhaps i shud really try to revise and listen to lectures from now on, haha i wonder if i could ever achieve it...
i'm very lost at school now, i even face difficulties in maths, the only subject that i could really understand in the 1st semester, now when i stare at the tutorial questions, my mind jus goes blank...and the pace is goin so fast that i could barely catch up, and pw simply irritates me, i'm not talented in any area of this subject at all, and my group seems to be the worst of all, 4 eoms submitted for 2nd draft, and all 4 got criticised and labelled as bad examples to the class, how doomed...
and the fact that this is gonna be the last year of pw jus makes me even more turned off, they finally realise how useless this subject is and why dun they jus bloody remove it now?
argh ccb